Moving on

I've been stupid. I believed there is a true friend exist in my life. I've been searching for it. None, is the only result I got. I mistook some of them as my true friend. I thought they could understand me, but they are only "thought" after all.
I shared my life stories with them blindly, thinking they are really willing to listen, console me, but somehow I'm forcing them instead, forcing them to listen, to be my real friend in life. I was wrong, so wrong.
I don't know is there really a true friend exist? Or he/she already existed and very close to me? Yeah, I still believing, but I won't search for it already. I know if that true friend really does exist, I don't have to find them, eventually we will meet up.
So now, I'm still trying to move on, from the mistake I just realized. Again, I mistook somebody as my true friend, this time it involved 2 persons. Haha how embarrassing ! The messages I text them, my life stories that I told them...
They are good people no doubt. They are kind too, they chose the best way to tell me they are not the friend I'm searching for. The way they used is to ignore me, maybe I'm too crazy ? I almost find them everyday for nothing since they went to college... Yeah, maybe I've gone insane..
Now, I don't know why I feel so scare and kinda sad when I see them, I mean in facebook =.=
I've been try to avoid to contact with them, see their posts recently =.= Feeling guilty maybe? Feeling embarrass maybe? Or thinking "Can we still be friends"?
Give me few weeks more... Few weeks more I swear I will move on ! And then we will finally became friends like last time. The less chatting but when meet up can start a short conversation friends.